In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate

In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate
Al-Quran (30:30)

So direct your face toward the religion, inclining to truth. [Adhere to] the fitrah of Allah upon which He has created [all] people. No change should there be in the creation of Allah. That is the correct religion, but most of the people do not know.

فَأَقِمْ وَجْهَكَ لِلدِّينِ حَنِيفًا فِطْرَةَ اللَّهِ الَّتِي فَطَرَ النَّاسَ عَلَيْهَا لَا تَبْدِيلَ لِخَلْقِ اللَّهِ ذَلِكَ الدِّينُ الْقَيِّمُ وَلَكِنَّ أَكْثَرَ النَّاسِ لَا يَعْلَمُونَ
[Al-Imran 3:8] "[Who say], "Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower."


Tuesday, February 25, 2014

What is Happiness?!

How to be happy? We often think that an IDEAL LIFE should always be filled with happiness! You think that a little more money, that new car, that husband, would give you happiness but happiness can not be everlasting when derived from such. Just observe all around you! The fame and fortune has not granted some happiness!

Happiness comes from within yourself, the condition of your soul! I always seem to forget this and often times measure my quality of my life to what I envisioned success to be for me. This makes me so miserable and ungrateful. I am slowly and painfully accepting that my plan is not happening as PLANNED and that is okay! Afterall, everything is preordained. Our Sustenance and Livelihood has all been decided however, we have to be diligent in searching for it! Its difficult to face your own expectations and the expectations you ASSUME others have of you. Two days ago I spoke to my mother and revealed how I often feel like a failure! Her words of encouragement and motivation serve to ease the pressure sometimes!

Last night I stayed up into the middle of the night to ask from Allah. I asked for guidance, patience and contentment in my life. As I looked into my life I realized how blessed I am and indeed how comfortable my life is. I love these nights although they are my last resorts to getting my Iman (faith) back. My iman gives me fortitude in this life and gives so much meaning and understanding! Often times I don't feel the energy to work towards my iman because I just need to feel my misery! I guess I hate myself sometimes that I punish myself with feeling the misery. Weird! If I could throw a spiritual tantrum I suppose I would but honestly I can't! No one can protect me from the torment of Jahanum but Allah! I have nothing if I don't have Allah in my side. Allah is the creator of the universe and all that belongs in it! How can I not side with Allah and give him my Allegiance! I'm too fearful of being destroyed and besides a life without Allah and Islam is a miserable one! My heart could never deal with such dishonesty to myself!

This dunya (world) really deceives you to thinking you can do without but subhana'Allah you will never succeed if you don't have Allah. TV although the most evil things created sometimes reveals to me how strong my faith is! Atleast my gheerah for my Deen!  For example, there is this show I watch in which this old Arab "Muslim(his name is Mohamed so yeah I am assuming)" man sometimes makes appearances. This man sports young model girlfriends on each show (commits a lot of zina  obviously) and has these mansions! I thought to myself how ridiculous he looks like a fool. No one probably takes him seriously other than want his money. His love for mansions and all this will only last until he leaves this world because the way he lives its kind of a risk he is taking in loosing his akhirah! It gives me joy that even though my little comfortable life is sometimes troubling that I can secure myself success in both this life and the next if I just fear Allah and live my live according to that! Just saying this gives me so much Happiness! Happiness that makes me want to cry...right now!

 Happiness comes from contentment and contentment only comes from gratitude to the Creator. Life is hard for everybody, from a billionaire to a orphan child in Afghanistan. We all struggle to find meaning to our lives and search for SOMETHING that will make us happy in all shapes and forms. Pure bliss does not exist in this world and until we realize this we wont be truly CONTENT with our life. Today in this world depression is defined by the absence of happiness and as a result of such mentality we get  A WHOLE lot of depressed people. Contentment grants us the ability to be happy which only comes from being a grateful servant to Allah and living ISLAM!

So last night I made a promise to myself to just work hard and that is all! my Rizq shall come to me when it is decided. In the mean time I just have to strive and calm down!


Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Do not be Sad!!

Human emotions are amazing realities of this life. Everything we see and everything around us is an action that was in one way or another influenced by an emotion. Interestingly, we are the ones whom create them. We have the power to dictate our emotions and whole state of mind yet it appears as if we are the captives and victims of them.

Sadness is a capable of soul crushing. In contrast to anger, sadness takes possession of every part of our being slowing infecting it with hopelessness. The complexity of this emotion is nothing less but deceit.  

Imam Ibn al-Qayyim once said "Grief weakens the heart and determination, & hurts the will, and nothing is more beloved to Shaytan (devil) than a sad believer”.

How many people have lost their faith due to sadness?  If we contemplate on reasons that bring about sadness we would find that most are due to not being content with the qadr of Allah! We feel sad with the passing of a loved one, our test results, feeling deficient in blessings, lacking wealth, lacking fame,  lacking education, losing opportunities, and all sorts of “I don’t have this and that!”

Remember the following Hadith of the Messenger of Allah (sallahu allayhi wa salam/peace and blessings be upon him): The happiness of the son of Adam depends on his being content with what Allah has decreed for him, and the misery of the son of Adam results from his failure to pray Istikhara, and from his discontent with what Allah has decreed for him.[1]

So what is the solution to NOT being sad?! ISLAM! I shall elaborate… Islam advises us to use our time wisely to take refuge in Allah from laziness as laziness causes an idle mind prone to sadness and evil thoughts! Realize that when you are sad, you’re not hurting anyone but yourself and it’s not going to make things better! Know that no one can take you out of it but Allah and Allah has power over all things. Contemplate on the greatness of Allah. You might feel that your circumstance is “unfair “and it was a result of your Qadr. Know that Allah does not intend hardship upon you. If everyone obeyed Allah there would not be so much injustice and oppression.  All this evil is as a result of those who do not fear or believe in Allah. If all people want is this dunya. Let it be. Do not humiliate yourself by being sad for what you don’t possess of it. At the end no one will leave this earth with any of it! Truth always prevails. Take comfort in that and that Allah loves those who are patient and you will be rewarded for your patience. Jannah and earning the pleasure of Allah is your goal! Your purpose is not being the richest person alive or most popular or most beautiful! Contemplate on the reality of this life!

It was narrated that Ibn Mas’ood (radiyallaahu `anhumaa) said, “Certain faith (yaqeen) is that you do not make the people happy by angering Allah, and that you do not envy anyone for that which Allah has provided, and that you do not blame anyone for something which Allah has not given you – since provision will not be brought on by a person’s craving after it, nor will it be repelled by a person’s disliking it. Indeed Allah through His Justice has made joy and happiness dependent upon having certain faith andContentment, and He has made worries and sorrow spring from doubt and displeasure.”

Today I was so sad and I must say Alhamdulillah for having enough iman to remind me of Allah to get me out of misery! It was only in taking refuge in Allah that I felt everything came into perspective. I can describe the feeling to being similar to when watching a sad or scary movie and feeling thankful that is not your situation.  You might be living the current situation but if you are a MUSLIM you know it’s just temporary and all you can do your best and leave the rest to Allah. It is not in your control and I take comfort in that. However, you are IN CONTROL of your thoughts and emotions. The only way you can be in control is by strengthening your iman. The stronger your iman the more control you have. May Allah make it easy for everyone battling sadness and having trouble trying to be patient!



[1] [Tirmidhi; classed as Saheeh by al-Haakim, 1/699, and al-Dhahabi agreed with him. It was classed as Hasan by al-Haafiz ibn Hajar in Fath al-Baari, 11/184]]

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Late Day Start Reflections


Today I had a late morning as I have been having as of late but it was especially due to a stressed induced sleepless night. SubhanaAllah, I spent the whole night stressing and making dua to Allah. It was a dua that I thought more or less was wishful thinking and not elegant in any form. One of the things I asked Allah was to alleviate my hard heart. This life is quite exhausting as there is so much to think about and plan for. At times it seems pointless to exert oneself to any great lengths especially when we remember the reality of this life and its unknown ending but we have to make the most of it.

Today as I got ready to do my work out, I planned to work out first then pray duhr. Considering it was already a late start to my day I wanted to get my exercise out of the way so that I don’t have a late breakfast/lunch as “it’s not good for one’s health.”  Subhana’Allah, such a weird thinking and totally backwards. I was more concerned about my health that is a blessing from Allah and not from my own doing and I was planning my salah around my schedule when it should be otherwise!! SHOULD  I NOT BEEN grateful to Allah for the blessing of being able to even exercise. One would think that would be obvious but apparently it was not for me. I should be more concerned with my soul than the health effects of a late start.

What is worth mentioning is how quickly I forgot to be grateful to Allah. I had spent my whole night stressing and when I woke up everything was resolved better than I anticipated or would have imagined. Allahu Akbar. ([8:30] “they plan, and Allah plans. And Allah is the best of planners. ”) I underestimated my poor dua and it made me want to cry. After Salah, I could not help but thank Allah for not taking my soul until now and pray Allah has mercy enough not to take it in an evil state.
What I also noticed is what a blessing it is to find ease in one’s worship. I must admit, the majority of the time praying the sunnah of duhr is SUCH A TRIAL for me. I feel its weight so heavy on me as if it such a burden. May Allah guide me and I easily forget the beautiful satisfying feeling I ALWAYS GET without fail after it. Subhana’allah, How easily I forget the feeling and the virtue with Allah.  Anyhow, today it was so easy on me and I actually craved it if that’s not weird enough for such a poor soul of me. I remember even thinking how short it felt. { “Umm Habeebah (radi Allahu anha) sadi that she heard Rasulullah (sallahu Allayhi wa salam) say, “Whosever consistently performs four rakah before duhr and four rakah after it, Allah will safeguard him from the fire.  (Sahih reported by At-Tirmidhee and Ibn Majah)”

Things to reflect on

  1.  Seek refuge in Allah in all things and be hopeful always.
  2. Fortify your dua and be consistent
  3. Be grateful for all our blessings and use them to show gratitude towards pleasing Allah not displeasing    him.
  4. Salah is always priority! Remember the virtue of sunnah prayers!
  5. Check your heart always
  6. Remember the Akhirah! 

Sunday, November 25, 2012

The Silliest People, the fools


Fudayl ibn `Iyyaad (rahimahullaah) said:
“Any evil doer can think he is a good person, the ignorant can think of himself as a scholar, the greedy thinks of himself generous, the stupid thinks of himself as intelligent. Life is short and hopes are unlimited, yet many are too dazzled with themselves to see a clear picture for advancement.” 
Adh-Dhahabee (rahimahullaah) commented: “I swear by Allah that Fudayl is right. One is also unjust, yet believes he is the oppressed, eats unlawfully and thinks himself pious, a sinner and thinks himself honest, and seeks knowledge but hasn’t even learned to implement it to his family.” Sifaatus-Sawfah 8/440.
May Allah protect us from being such and we seek refuge in Allah from such people. Ameen. I love these two quotes as they both work as an iman "litmus paper." I usually find that those who ask why trials afflict them are those that believe they are good and do not deserve them. Its only those who believe they are good that are bad. Subhana'Allah, I have to remind myself not to be as such. Allah is so merciful that he really does not give us what we REALLY deserve. If that was so we would all be destroyed. We should ask Allah the most merciful, for his mercy and for his blessings as we are not deserving of such. We can not even thank Allah enough and we can not until we REALIZE that we can not thank Allah enough. ONLY then will we be truly thankful. Anyhow that is all I wanted to share. May we reflect and benefit.

An Awkward Smile

We MUST remind and remember that our purpose in this life is not to please or fulfill our dreams. It is to worship Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala. Patience is so difficult but when we remember the real treasure of this life is the happiness that is achieved by being an obedient slave to Allah, it makes patience seem obvious. I rarely talk about my life and the difficulties that I deal with being a revert because in truth it has nothing to do with me being a revert but being human and a believer. I have the same trials a non revert would have.  Right now I am very hurt and my eyes have been moist since. I feel so sad that I don't even know how it will go away. Maybe time will distract me and when something better comes along. All I can do is fear Allah and persist in living and increasing my good deeds. Afterall, jannah is more everlasting than this world. I so want to feel bitter and if I were to ever speak of what I feel bitter from I would be the worst of human beings.

A lot of my trials have come from me trying to protect my Deen which is my heart. I am in the place I am in because I want to practice my deen and it subhana'Allah is the most lonelinest place on earth it seems. I am devalued because of it. I have been humiliated a lot and it hurts so bad. The worst aspect of this all is that sometimes I think my trials are due to my sins making me feel worse about my situation. Regardless of all this sadness, I have Allah, I am a muslim and I am still alive to continue to increase in good so that when I meet Allah I meet him with the best. I can't imagine undergoing all these trials without Islam. Being muslim makes me happy even if it can only spark an awkward smile. May Allah give me the fortitude to be patient and motivation to strive to get closer to him ameen.

I came across this beautiful quote and I hope to share it so that we find in it ourselves.

Imaam Abu’l-Faraj ‘AbdurRahmaan Ibn Al-Jawzee:
"How excellent are the people who have abandoned sweet dreams, with drawing from that for which they erected their feet for. Standing up to fatigue themselves in the dark, seeking a portion of the blessing. When the night comes they stay up, and when the day arrives they derive lessons from it. When they look at their faults they seek forgiveness, and when they think about their sins they cry and feel dejected. O dwellings of the beloved, where are your inhabitants? O places of sincerity, where are your residents? O spots of the pious, where are your people? O places of nightly prayer, where are your visitors? I have, by Allah, traveled around and found these people extinct. Those who used to stay awake at night have gone away and the lovers of sleep are left. These times have sought eating of lusts to replace fasting.”[al-Yawaqit al-Jawzeeyya, p.28-29]

Thursday, November 15, 2012

A Happy Person Fears Allah

What a beautiful quote below.

Imam Ibnul Qayyim (may Allah have mercy upon him) stated: There is nothing more beneficial for the Muslim than abiding by the orders (of Allah), even if this initially brings about some difficulty. This is because its (obedience to Allah's orders) outcomes are all good, happiness, delight and joy, even if the person's desires (originally) disliked adherence. (Al-Fawaa`id)

When we have good intentions and solely try to find good because we know only good comes from it, this will only reap good. During the whole ordeal, to reach such a state is difficult but Allah subhanahu wa ta ala is so merciful that he guides our hearts towards tranquility. This life is so transient and I forget this FACT  often and as a result the monotonousness of this life takes a toll in my heart. It's sourness and weight makes me feel as if I am sinking into a suffocating darkness. The worst aspect of this all is that All praise is due to Allah, I have the LUXURY to even complain of such an easy life.

I sleep soundly every night not having to worry about any harm that may afflict me other than that of my own sins and trials of the heart. So easy subhana'Allah while people are being tested with more harsh trials all around the world. Regardless of this reality, I still find myself struggling to do much good, to BE better. Seems so much easier to give into our desires, neglect our iman and block our consciousness that Allah is all watching and all knowing. The most beautiful days I have are the days in which I am most spiritually productive. When the only melody that played in my heart was Qur'an and was strengthened with many prostrations. So beautiful. These are the days I am most happy and my happiness almost feels tactile. Why don't I do it more often? I don't know.

When I submit to Allah, nothing else matters and I feel happy! I feel so happy that I begin to feel sad because it reminds me of so many that dont know this happiness that comes with Islam.

This happiness is the end result of submitting to Allah. It our purpose in life so it is only makes sense for us to feel tranquility when we do. Ironically, we neglect it and it is the most difficult trial to do in this life, to submit. Currently I find it very difficult for myself to submit to the will of Allah and trust that Allah knows best. BUT when we do it is liberating and we feel joy. To me this is true happiness. A happy person can only be a person that fears and loves Allah therefore we should seek the guidance of Allah to lead us to be such individuals. May Allah make it easy for all of us Ameen.

Yesterday while contemplating some things in my life I realized many things. I want good and if I want it, I must seek it while doing good. We can not expect Allah to bless us with good if while doing so we do not do good. While at the same time we have to be patient and trust that Allah knows what is best. In islam, the end does not justify the means. The means (that asbab) must be good too. I leave this post now with this beautiful ayah so there is NEVER a reason to despair.

[3:9] "Indeed, Allah does not fail in his promise."

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Who is the believer among you?

I find myself quite often contemplating about my iman. I dont know when my iman is high but I DO know when my iman is low. However it is the in the times in which my iman is low that I find motivation to overcome it. I hate these phases but after each of these low iman episodes I come out with a stronger iman. Let me illustrate; having to constantly battle the whispers of shaytan sort of builds your "iman portfolio." The next time around you are more prepared and know from where he will try to attack. You have to prepare yourself for these battles. I know it sounds schizophrenic and weird but be advised. If one does not have the proper foundation (aqeedah) then know you will lose. Having low iman does not mean that you don't have belief, all it means is that ONE needs motivation, we are human. These whispers sometimes come disguised as your thoughts and it can make one question whether they are believers or munafiqs which is where I find myself quite often.  We just have to keep seeking knowledge, LEARN LEARN LEARN and busy ourselves with seeking it.
Its important to give ourselves relief by learning of what a believer is. I know for me that this hadith made me extremely happy. Hope this is a relief for you all. 


The Prophet sallahu allayhi wa salam said, “Whoever rejoices with his good deeds and grieves over his evil deeds, then that is the believer among you.” - [Sunan Tirmidhee (2165) and graded as “Saheeh” by Shaikh al-Albaanee] 
"So if you see within yourself that your chest expands with obedience and constricts with sins, then this is a glad tiding for you, that you are from the believing slaves of Allaah and from His pious Auliyaa’. That is why the Prophet sallahu allayhi wa salam said, “and coolness (comfort) of my eyes has been provided in prayer” [Sunan al-Nasaa’ee (3939, 3940) and graded as “Saheeh” by Shaikh al-Albaanee]  
-The Auliya of Allah-from Riyaadh Al Saliheen
Excerpt by http://foodiefahoodie.blogspot.com/2012/10/brief-comments-on-riyaadh-al-saaliheen_27.html
STILL... DON'T think much of yourself or think you are "safe." The way of the salaf was that they were in constant fear of being hypocrites and not doing enough. Always rushing towards doing good deeds, competing with one another in good. Umar Al-Khattab (radi Allahu anhu) was one to be recognized of being as such.  Its a good thing to contemplate about our iman and seek to improve it always. I hope that this will be a reminder to give some relief to those who feel wounded by these schizo-shaytan battles... May Allah make it easy on all of you who seek nearness to him. Allahumma ameen.

It is reported that Al-Hasan Al-Basrî – Allâh have mercy on him – said:The believer does the best deeds yet is most fearful [that his deeds will not be accepted]. If he were to spend a mountain of wealth [in charity], he would not feel sure [of the reward] until he sees it. The more righteous and pious he becomes, the more he fears. But the hypocrite (munâfiq) says, ‘There are so many people, I will be forgiven, no problem.’ So he does wrong and evil deeds, yet holds foolish wishes about Allâh. 
Al-Dhahabî,Siyar A’lâm Al-Nubalâ` 4:586.
Source: http://www.sayingsofthesalaf.net/index.php/righteous-fear-vs-sinful-delusion/#ixzz2AWtG8kK5

Monday, October 29, 2012

Will the heavens and earth weep for you?

Ibn Jareer recorded that Sa`eed bin Jubayr said, "A man came to Ibn `Abbaas, may Allaah be pleased with him, and said to him: ‘O Abaa al-`Abbaas, Allaah says, "{And the heavens and the earth wept not for them, nor were they given respite.} [ad-Dukhaan 44:29]" ‘Do the heavens and the earth weep for anybody?’ 

He, may Allah be pleased with him, said, ‘Yes, there is no one who does not have a gate in the heavens through which his provision comes down and his good deeds ascend. When the believer dies, that gate is closed; it misses him and weeps for him, and the place of prayer on earth where he used to pray and remember Allaah also weeps for him. 

But the people of Fir`awn left no trace of righteousness on the earth and they had no good deeds that ascended to Allaah, so the heavens and the earth did not weep for them.’”Al-`Awfi reported something similar from Ibn `Abbaas, may Allah be pleased with him.Extracted from Tafseer Ibn Katheer

http://www.notebookofbenefits.com/2012/10/will-heavens-and-earth-weep-for-you.html