In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate

In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate
Al-Quran (30:30)

So direct your face toward the religion, inclining to truth. [Adhere to] the fitrah of Allah upon which He has created [all] people. No change should there be in the creation of Allah. That is the correct religion, but most of the people do not know.

فَأَقِمْ وَجْهَكَ لِلدِّينِ حَنِيفًا فِطْرَةَ اللَّهِ الَّتِي فَطَرَ النَّاسَ عَلَيْهَا لَا تَبْدِيلَ لِخَلْقِ اللَّهِ ذَلِكَ الدِّينُ الْقَيِّمُ وَلَكِنَّ أَكْثَرَ النَّاسِ لَا يَعْلَمُونَ
[Al-Imran 3:8] "[Who say], "Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower."

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The Disappearing Male!! uh oh!

Narrated Anas: I will narrate to you a Hadith and none other than I will tell you about after it. I heard Allah's Apostle saying: From among the portents of the Hour are (the following):
1. Religious knowledge will decrease (by the death of religious learned men).
2. Religious ignorance will prevail.
3. There will be prevalence of open illegal sexual intercourse.
4. women will increase in number and men will decrease in number so much so that fifty women will be looked after by one man. (Book #3, Hadith #81)

Allahu Akbar!!!

Monday, June 28, 2010

Dawah can be yummy too

This weekend I went to my first halal Chinese restaurant and it was awesome!!! I felt so overwhelmed of the choices to choose from. I could finally eat anything without having to investigate how it was cooked, where it was cooked on or what it was cooked with, regardless if it was "halal." Orange Chicken never tasted better :) The whole restaurant was full of Islamic calligraphy and pictures of Mecca. It made me really happy that the owners were so open and proud of being Muslims. Now that’s yummy dawah :)

Lets "water" our "plants!!" :)

A certain special little person close to my heart came into the folds of Islam (formally)!! Allahu Akbar! I feel the strain of this and I hope they won’t have to go through the trials I have had to go through and I pray that Allah (swt) makes it easy for ‘them iA. I feel happy but at the same time, so apprehensive about it due to so many reasons. The Shahada is a very POWERFUL declaration yet the most effortless thing to do. Its almost like a paradox; easy and difficult.

I have came across a lot of people that although they claim they “love” Islam and want to be a Muslim have issues with declaring it and its nothing but the whispers of Shaytan threatening them with insignificant things of this world that have no magnitude to the real purpose of Life by exaggerating its “consequences.” Everyone will have trials no doubt but the trials that hurt most are those that loosen the grip on one’s deen.

For some time now I have had a very sour and acidy feeling in the pit of my stomach due to all the stress I have been subjected as of late and I feel that anything can break me right now but sA this weekend proved to be a success and helped me put things in perspective again. The Quran is the only reassurance of how our trials are so intangible to our real goal and our only manual on how to surmount them sA its truly a mercy from Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala.

I spent this weekend studying Surah Al-Khaf. Every Aayah is a miracle sA! In every ayah there are lessons and wisdom. It made me realize how important it is for me to learn Arabic. I feel like a looser! I felt so shamed on how easily I lose hope, when Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala has promised us he would not abandon his servants. Are we doubtful of Allah's (swt) promise because we are so attached to this world or what?! I don’t know I wish I could look into my heart because not even I know what’s in it. I sometimes fear that I might be a munafiq and not even know it and that I only strive to live up to this ideal not necessarily for the sake of Allah (swt). I feel crappy now. I need to check my intentions more often and I don’t ( I check my email more than my sincerity and intentions)ugggh…

So anyways, when I arrived home last night I found my plant dying and all shriveled up ( represents "Me") and I rushed to water it. It was a really a sad sight I felt so horrible. When I woke up today in the morning, I rushed to go check up on it and it was all “happy” again. sA! Truly these are signs from Allah (swt) for those that ponder. I recognized the analogy and it’s..... AMAZING!!!

[2:164]Indeed, in the creation of the heavens and earth, and the alternation of the night and the day, and the [great] ships which sail through the sea with that which benefits people, and what Allah has sent down from the heavens of rain, giving life thereby to the earth after its lifelessness and dispersing therein every [kind of] moving creature, and [His] directing of the winds and the clouds controlled between the heaven and the earth are signs for a people who use reason.

My cute little plant :D

Friday, June 25, 2010

Keep them coming... (Trials)

Narrated Abu Huraira: Allah's Apostle said, "If Allah wants to do good to somebody, He afflicts him with trials." -Bukhari

Today I realized that I had more trials than I imagined and it makes me happy deep down inside (the rewards iA ). I feel as things become harder and more complicated the same applies to how I have to think of ways to surmount them. All my life I have had to try to be resilient and be the best I can be in the midst of chaos unwillingly and willingly. Whenever I am down or feeling stressed I always remember the favor and blessing Allah (swt) bestowed me with, Islam and how he tests the ones whom he loves most. iA.

These past weeks have been very stressful on me in every aspect POSSIBLE!: emotionally, financially, academically, socially, islamically…etc! and today was no exception but Alhamdulilah I feel very humbled by all this because I know that success is only through pleasing and obeying Allah (swt). We must always remind ourselves that our end is near and all the riches and social ranking won’t matter then. I don’t care to collect luxuries, money, or chase this stupid world. This world and life sucks!

On a brighter note, I was too stressing about whether I was going to be able to attend this awesome class called Echoes of the Cave-Tafseer on Surah Al-Khaf (Al-Maghrib course)and did not know whether it would be wise to do so in the midst of such chaos. ALHAMDULILAH! ALLAHU AKBAR! Everything resolved itself (transportation and hospitality) just hours ago literally. {If Allah (swt) wants to favor someone, he grants him comprehension (understanding) of this religion- Bukhari, Tirmidhi and Ahmad}

Allah (swt) is indeed great. How can I possibly be distraught by the ways of this world when I have the creator of the heavens on my side[7:196]. HOW CAN I?! Im such a whiner sA sometimes I amaze myself how much I whine. Today I felt like being bitter just because I felt like it. Lol it’s so ridiculous how I think of such things right away. I need to train those nafs to immediately seek Allah’s (swt) counsel and not just succumb to melancholy.

Yesterday, I was listening to a lecture from Waleed Basyouni called “Parents; The Middle Gate of Jannah.” Oh my Allah (swt), it put things in perspective for me especially with things that I was currently contemplating .The best thing to do to one’s parents is be dutiful (support them) and call them to Islam [17:23-24] and I don’t ever plan to compromise that command from Allah (swt). The only form of dawah I can rely now is just my good character towards them and being hopeful in the favor of Allah (swt). I cannot understand how so many neglect their parents especially their mothers that bore them for nine difficult months and raised them. I guess this is my trial and I just have to be patient :-/

now to leave this awesome Nasheed... I love it!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010


After my bio-organic chem Final I went to the Masjid for Maghrib. There was only one sister there("surprise"). I made wudu and quickly joined in. As I prayed, I felt this heavy feeling fall upon me and and felt as if everything was "caving" in. The recitation sounded like a far away echo and I felt almost as if I was floating. I must have been really mentally exhausted from my long final. But before I figured what was going on, I thought I was dying. WHY? I have no idea. I always do -_-

I was like "oh my gosh I'm probably dying..." and for some reason I was like "Yes dying during SALAH... awesome!" I guess its nice to think of it that way but dang what if that really was my end... I am so not ready to face my trials yet or ready to depart this life with an empty deed tank. So I decided to stay in the masjid until Isha. My initial plans were to go to bed early (11pm) so that I can wake for midnight prayer. Apparently that plan failed.

When I got home, I heard a cute little cat {note* I LOVE CATS!} So I went berserks and got the cat food and water to feed it. I spent probably a good 35 minutes trying to lure it to feed it. Soon after, a fellow classmate called to talk about the final and we talked for about ~30 minutes. By the time I got to bed it was 12:30 am and I just laid there trying to sleep. I kept thinking about; school, family, future, and marriage. And here I am writing for an anonymous audience at 2:41am.. might as well pray now because I need that extra credit for Jannah.

p.s. my final had 30 extra credit and I hella went psycho ... yet we don't go psycho for our unlimited extra credit opportunities to please Allah (swt) and earn Jannah. we are so ungrateful.