In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate

In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate
Al-Quran (30:30)

So direct your face toward the religion, inclining to truth. [Adhere to] the fitrah of Allah upon which He has created [all] people. No change should there be in the creation of Allah. That is the correct religion, but most of the people do not know.

فَأَقِمْ وَجْهَكَ لِلدِّينِ حَنِيفًا فِطْرَةَ اللَّهِ الَّتِي فَطَرَ النَّاسَ عَلَيْهَا لَا تَبْدِيلَ لِخَلْقِ اللَّهِ ذَلِكَ الدِّينُ الْقَيِّمُ وَلَكِنَّ أَكْثَرَ النَّاسِ لَا يَعْلَمُونَ
[Al-Imran 3:8] "[Who say], "Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower."

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Stop...!! before your wreck yourself!!

I came across this quote below today and I loved it... Great reminder whenever one is confronted with their companion, the Nafs! -_-

"Food for Thought: Behind every sin, there are various detriments and harms; spiritual, physical, social, financial, and many others. The next time we feel like committing a sin, we should try to explain to ourselves that these body parts of mine if used against the wishes of Allah will be my enemies tomorrow."

Thursday, March 17, 2011

I belong to the Best Nation!! insha'Allah

[2:143] "Thus We have made you [true Muslims - real believers of Islamic Monotheism, true followers of Prophet Muhammad SAW and his Sunnah (legal ways)], a Wasat (just) (and the best) nation, that you be witnesses over mankind and the Messenger (Muhammad SAW) be a witness over you..."

Despite what is going on nowadays with all this hatred against muslims, its rather easy to loose pride of being a Muslim but we must remember what better pride to have than the pride of belonging to the Ummah of Muhammad (sallahu allayhi wa salam).This is all a trial from Allah. Many loose their deen while others try their best to be unnoticed and not associate with Islam. Therefore, its important to adhere to sunnah of the prophet sallahu allayhi wa salam and hold on to our Deen dearly for its the only thing that dignifies us!!

While its frustrating we must remember we belong to the best Nation! They don't understand that but I do and that is what matters. On the day of Judgement we will be the largest group...

Narrated Abu Said Al-Khudri: Allah's Apostle said, "Noah will be called on the Day of Resurrection and he will say, 'Labbaik and Sa'daik, O my Lord!' Allah will say, 'Did you convey the Message?' Noah will say, 'Yes.' His nation will then be asked, 'Did he convey the Message to you?' They will say, 'No Warner came to us.' Then Allah will say (to Noah), 'Who will bear witness in your favor?' He will say, 'Muhammad and his followers. So they (i.e. Muslims) will testify that he conveyed the Message. And the Apostle (Muhammad) will be a witness over yourselves, and that is what is meant by the Statement of Allah "Thus We have made of you a just and the best nation that you may be witnesses over mankind and the Apostle (Muhammad) will be a witness over yourselves.

Enjoy the video! and the recitation of my FAVORITE Qari! Tabarak'Allah!;) May Allah reward him Ameen! 

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Disclaimer: Ghetto-Fabulous (not necessary a good thing but sometimes)

Drama seems to make life a bit interesting or at least give one something to rant about. Seems like the thing everyone waits exuberant for. Everyone has drama one way or another and since humans are naturally selfish (at times its smart to be), many rejoice when others are worse than they are. Ever feel the tension of someone that feels awkward at your happiness?! I guess I am making strong declarations but I have felt that tension alot lately! "But its okay Miss A, B and C ! I am not any happier than you so be rest assured my life is NOT better than yours ."

only thing is... shshsh I hope "they" don't find out is YES I am happy and content and still am a Muslimah hopeful for the mercy and pleasure of her Lord! The other day, I honestly felt I was going to get an aneurysm. I was lacking sleep and the blow of having to "brush" off some passive aggressive comments by some "loved" ones I thought I burst a brain artery. I was so out of it (mentally and physically) that I did not know how to respond or how to react. I did the most energy efficient thing I could do and that was... breathe! Two days later my head still hurt and I was starting to become nauseous! Why must I channel my emotional distress somatically UGGH! 

Too many things were building so I "de-blocked" my drama like a 4 year old destroying its lego work of art. I put an end to one problem that only lingered in my life for no apparent reason and then I decided to not give a hoots about what these misses's  have to say! Next... (today) I let it be known to some extravagant human beings not to take advantage of me or disrespect me because I look like a cornered shivering mouse with bulging eyes (maybe thats how hijabi muslimahs look to the kafirs). Yes I am muslim, yes I life is not very emotionally sweet right now for me but don't tread on me!  I could not even believe I got so ghetto. At the end I was just confused of how I had so much composure (I think) while getting ghetto! I should of won an oscar for it! Even the tongue twisters went pretty smooth except for one waa :(  I did not even know I had it in me! I HAD to step in and stand up otherwise no one was going to. I am sure it was not the best approach but sometimes a girl has to do what a girl has to do and that is get ghetto-Fabulous! I feel empowered for some odd reason... Astagfur'Allah but yup thats all folks!

Allah is Al-Qahhar: The subduer

I recently acquired a new life lesson that is proving to salvage tranquility within me. Whatever I don't have the capability to change I don't even bother loosing sleep over it. I only worry of what I can change about myself or what I can do; The rest I leave to Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala.  I used to worry frantically about my future and was continually adding or subtracting from my "plan.' I know it may sound obvious that everyone knows that plans never necessary go as planned. Ever wonder why?! Well... BECAUSE we don't have power over our lives. Yes, we can make certain choices but ultimately the power lies with Allah! Its easy to believe that we can plan but we can't. We can have goals which is completely different from planning. 

I set goals for myself everyday; don't have to be extravagant just small personal/religious/academic ones. Once in a while I believe its healthy to just vent out and if possible just rant... which I will do insha'Allah... on my next post ;) anyways back on topic...

The sixth pillar of Iman (faith) is the belief in Qadar (Divine Pre-ordainment). 'Verily Allah Decreed all matters before existence, and Allah knows exactly when and where everything will occur, and everything occurs according to his decree.'

Its amazing!!!! I am still amazed as how Islam amazes me everyday. From Science to just everything that encompasses one's LIFE !. Everything has a reason, even the most minute of all things you might not comprehend the reason for it has an amazing reason which later modern day research proves but of course we believe before they prove it. Its just puts a smile on my face nonetheless! How amazing!!!!  

As a Muslim, we constantly affirm that we believe in the Qadar of Allah but our lives lack that attestation. We stress over matters we don't control of and that usually is what drives one insane LITERALLY! Its has brought much contentment and firmness in my Iman. I feel as if alot of weight has  been lifted off me. I still have alot to work on myself and I ask Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala to have mercy on me, guide me and protect my heart from becoming sealed Ameen!

[Surah At-Taghabun 64:11] "No disaster strikes except by permission of Allah . And whoever believes in Allah - He will guide his heart. And Allah is Knowing of all things.

The Prophet (sallahu allayhi wa salam) said "A believer is not beset by any hardship or fatigue or illness or grief or even a worry except that Allah will expiate thereby his sins"

[Surah Al-Hadid 57:22-23]  "No disaster strikes upon the earth or among yourselves except that it is in a register before We bring it into being - indeed that, for Allah , is easy -In order that you not despair over what has eluded you and not exult [in pride] over what He has given you. And Allah does not like everyone self-deluded and boastful."

Saturday, March 5, 2011

It does not matter...

             School starts in less than a month for me and I feel well rested thats for sure! I took advantage of sleeping in and just relaxing. Too bad I had a series of psycho events occur when it should have been a good ol' wonderful break. Again I feel silly to even believe that would be the case. But Alhamdulilah I am content with what Allah has ordained no complaining there! Now what to do next... I need a plan of action. I practically did nothing productive in terms of extracurricular personal goals like taking my PTCE (Pharmacy Technician Certification Exam) which I want to have done before applying to pharmacy school Insha'allah! Also I hoped that I would have attained a job by now but nope! or even done some volunteer work but nope or worked on my arabic but nope! 

Insha'allah I hope to apply to a nursing program while I'm contemplating pharmacy school. Planning on working as a nurse and pharmacy technician to put myself through pharmacy school insha'Allah. Well thats my plan while I try to figure out what to do about myself. I am pretty much passing time and hope for the best.. Until I die... pretty much!

I am not going to be so negative but I have done progress in other aspects which contribute to my sense of satisfaction about this "break" of mine! 

Last night while I went to throw out some trash I got a GOOD whiff of trash odor and possibly enhaled trash "fumes." I was so grossed out I literally tried to "cough it out" of my lungs. Then I thought! 'wow us humans produce so much crap in this world! like TONS! and we produce one of the most repugnant stuff from ourselves (sorry if I am being obscene sowwwy) yet we are so arrogant (and others deny Islam)!!'

Like my prior posts, I can't even fathom the idea that one day I will smell of rotting flesh and have maggots eat through my skin. 
[29:57] "Everyone shall taste the death. Then unto Us you shall be returned."
! Its oh so depressing! I don't know why humans are so arrogant! we think we can belittle and antagonize others and refuse Islam when we are just stinkers literally! Allah warns us from being arrogant:
[17:37] "And do not walk upon the earth exultantly. Indeed, you will never tear the earth [apart], and you will never reach the mountains in height."
May Allah guide my family to Islam and may we die in no other state that in the state of complete submission to Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala! AMEEN! Oh Lord! 
[66:6] "O you who have believed, protect yourselves and your families from a Fire whose fuel is people and stones, over which are [appointed] angels, harsh and severe; they do not disobey Allah in what He commands them but do what they are commanded."
Then there are those individuals whom think that all that matters in the end of the day is that they are "good people." According to themselves they don't follow no religion, they call themselves humanists as if others are de-humanist and hate humans ! lol so hilarious right?! I mean seriously Whom gives them the right to even ascribe themselves good or to define what is good?! only Allah azza wa'jal knows whom is good and already defined the path to attain such label. 

[23:1] "Successful indeed are the believers."
[3:85-87] "Do they seek other than the religion of Allah (the true Islamic Monotheism worshiping none but Allah Alone), while to Him submitted all creatures in the heavens and the earth, willingly or unwillingly. And to Him shall they all be returned.Say (O Muhammad SAW): "We believe in Allah and in what has been sent down to us, and what was sent down to Ibrahim (Abraham), Isma'il (Ishmael), Ishaque (Isaac), Ya'qub (Jacob) and Al-Asbat [the twelve sons of Ya'qub (Jacob)] and what was given to Musa (Moses), 'Iesa (Jesus) and the Prophets from their Lord. We make no distinction between one another among them and to Him (Allah) we have submitted (in Islam)."And whoever seeks a religion other than Islam, it will never be accepted of him, and in the Hereafter he will be one of the losers.
and who are the "famous" Believers?...
[7:158] "Say, [O Muhammad], "O mankind, indeed I am the Messenger of Allah to you all, [from Him] to whom belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth. There is no deity except Him; He gives life and causes death." So believe in Allah and His Messenger, the unlettered prophet, who believes in Allah and His words, and follow him that you may be guided."
[24:52] "And whosoever obeys Allah and His Messenger (SAW), fears Allah, and keeps his duty (to Him), such are the successful ones."

So those who are "good"  but are disbelievers will it benefit them at the end?...
[39:65] And indeed it has been revealed to you (O Muhammad SAW), as it was to those (Allah's Messengers) before you: "If you join others in worship with Allah, (then) surely (all) your deeds will be in vain, and you will certainly be among the LOSERS."
I don't know... I just feel so overwhelmed and all I can hope is for Allah to have mercy and guide me always! When I think of the reality that awaits us all and the reality in which we live (a delusion) it really makes other stuff seem so insignificant and at the end it brings zakina (tranquility) to my heart and makes patience feel sweet. Alhamdulilah :) BUT inflicts a fear in me like no other! Subhana'Allah even the ability to feel angry at someone or anything quickly dissipates because It does not matter...

Their Hate is Hilarious!

I'm sure this video has circulated but I just wanted to share my opinion: this video is not scary (nothing to be scared about) but hilarious!

Nothing is more SCARY than what lies ahead for all of us. [22:2,  39:57-58,  40:18]

[2:11-12] "And when it is said to them: "Make not mischief on the earth," they say: "We are only peacemakers.Verily! They are the ones who make mischief, but they perceive not."

May Allah guide them or disgrace them Ameen!

Debrah Pauly is a comedian watch out for [2:00 min-2:06]

Debrah Pauly:"As a matter of fact a I know quite a few marines who would be very happy to help these terrorists to an early meeting in paradise..."
Me: "ha ha ha, Deborah thats a good one!! hella funny..."
 Debrah Pauly: grins to herself feeling great and accomplished-She thinks to herself "yeah I know I'm hella funny and smart!"

ha! she thinks she is so witty and clever! notice how she pauses with a grimace in her face waiting for her "moment" to be praised. (sigh* -_-)

I feel sorry for her! because in all honesty she is an idiot not very smart especially anyone whom spreads corruption and spreads lies about Islam!

This took place outside a fundraiser for a women's and homeless shelter! According to Deborah and her band of hooligans, they concluded its "pure unadulterated evil." Hmmm Okay?!... I did not bother watching could not watch the video any longer beyond Deborah. Which is why I picked on her on my post. In addition, I dont want to overdose on these shenanigans and turn my brain into mush.

This prompted me to think that there should be a show of some sort called 'stupid things kafirs do' from a viewpoint beyond the grave...  oh wait there will be! ...they will remember themselves.

[23:99-100]   "Until, when death comes to one of them (those who join partners with Allah-Disbeliever), he says: "My Lord! Send me backSo that I may do good in that which I have left behind!" No! It is but a word that he speaks, and behind them is Barzakh (a barrier) until the Day when they will be resurrected."
*I wonder if Deborah will still grimace thinking she is witty and wait for her moment ...yeah probably to return back eh! *feel like cracking a joke now but the reality of where this is going depresses me...sorry Deborah. May Allah guide you.  Ameen!
[32:14] "Then taste you (the torment of the Fire) because of your forgetting the Meeting of this Day of yours, (and) surely! We too will forget you, so taste you the abiding torment for what you used to do."

[3:94] "Then after that, whosoever shall invent a lie against Allah, … such shall indeed be the Zalimun (disbelievers)."

[6:21] "And who is more unjust than one who invents about Allah a lie or denies His verses? Indeed, the wrongdoers will not succeed."

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Patience, the ultimate fortitude!

Ironically we are our own best friend and ally yet our own worst enemy!

[17:14[It will be said], "Read your record. Sufficient is yourself against you this Day as accountant."

[24:24] “On a Day when their tongues, their hands and their feet will bear witness against them as to what they used to do.

[36:65] That Day, We will seal over their mouths, and their hands will speak to Us, and their feet will testify about what they used to earn.

Life and time is going by so fast and I barely am able to surpass with the minimum. Of course this is damaging to my ego but nonetheless it serves to humble me a bit. Everything is serving to damage any ego residue left behind. Which is a good thing but its painful. It serves to teach us to look at the world in a different perspective and not be so “SURE” of anything. Certainly not to be sure about people and to be extra wary of everyone even the pious because at the end they are humans. Just as we are not concerned about anyone else no one is either and it serves to make life a bit easier if we let it simmer in our minds and hearts. The less you expect from others and just focus on doing things for the sake of Allah instead of merely trying to make others recognize your efforts of being nice or expecting them to be nice to you, will make life easier. 

I am in a place in my life right now where I have no idea what to do. I don't even know what Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala wants me to do. All I can do is be "logical" and take everything into account to make a "smart deduction" of my circumstance. The other thing I can do which, is proving to be more difficult is having patience. I feel like a fool for believeing that others have my best interest. I was completely abandoned as if I was heartless and was not able to feel! I don’t even know what to do at this point other than  just go with the flow of such a tragedy and just hope for the best. Morale of the story have tawakkul (trust), taqwa (fear) in Allah and be patient because Allah will be with you! Because you can not even trust your own self!

[2:45] "And seek help through patience and prayer, and indeed, it is difficult except for the humbly submissive [to Allah ]

[2:153] "O you who have believed, seek help through patience and prayer. Indeed, Allah is with the patient."