Nothing is more unattractive than a man trying to hit on a sister online and pretend he is trying to make “dawah” … yeah right! They constantly engage in talking to sisters online… so unattractive and weird!
Because I don’t have a “Wali”… oh wait I do… -_- In reality no one cares or will watch out for your rights more than your own father but I don’t have a Muslim father therefore Allah will be my Wali. I used to feel so saddened about this but then I realize that if Allah guided me and knew I would have to face this alone he would not abandon me and would protect me. Alhamdulillah I have avoided really bad situations! Allah knows what my heart entails and what I most desire. Truthfully, I don’t romanticize marriage never have been that type. I am just trying to implement my Islam as best as I could. The older and more independent I become (from parents etc) the more susceptible to a lot of the diseases of this society and be hazardous to my iman as I had expressed earlier about how my hijab is threatened. Islam is practical but society says its not… but when you are alone others try to convince you otherwise. I want to have a Muslim family. I have always spent my Eid’s and Ramadan alone. Only for once when my mother would wake me up for suhoor and make me something to eat. What a blessing it must be to celebrate and worship together as a family… I really yearn for that. All I look forward to Eids is the blessings of it and buying my family gifts in hopes they also look forward to it and Islam does not become so estranged in order to soften their hearts (gift giving soften hearts) and be a source of dawah to them. Maybe Allah will grant me both one day but until then I hope that my heart remains steadfast in this deen and what I am blessed with is what my heart entails.