In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate

In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate
Al-Quran (30:30)

So direct your face toward the religion, inclining to truth. [Adhere to] the fitrah of Allah upon which He has created [all] people. No change should there be in the creation of Allah. That is the correct religion, but most of the people do not know.

فَأَقِمْ وَجْهَكَ لِلدِّينِ حَنِيفًا فِطْرَةَ اللَّهِ الَّتِي فَطَرَ النَّاسَ عَلَيْهَا لَا تَبْدِيلَ لِخَلْقِ اللَّهِ ذَلِكَ الدِّينُ الْقَيِّمُ وَلَكِنَّ أَكْثَرَ النَّاسِ لَا يَعْلَمُونَ
[Al-Imran 3:8] "[Who say], "Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower."

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Be Grateful :)

Ya Allah, I hope I did not depress anyone with that dumb stuff from my last post, I deleted it. As a matter of fact I should delete all my “emo” posts. I am happy to be Muslim and that will always be the case BITHNI’ILLAH. We need to realize that Shaytan exaggerates things in order to dishevel and become susceptible to his “traps.” One of the purpose of these traps are to make us ungrateful. Once one becomes ungrateful then that becomes the means of our own destruction.  Bitterness and hopelessness is a disease. Alhamdulillah I got off that cycle before it had the chance to condition itself in my heart. There is one truth that I can derive from what I was feeling: that is don’t have hope in this dunya. "Our hope should be in Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala. Know that this world will fail you but not Allah. This world is transient so do not place your hopes in it. Strive for the hereafter and believe in the promises of Allah."

  • If you are broke- GIVE CHARITY
  • If you feel your life is difficult- COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS
  • When you feel hopeless-REFLECT ON THE NAMES OF ALLAH AND MAKE DUA.
  • If you feel restless- FALL ASLEEP TALKING TO ALLAH

FOLLOW THE SUNNAH in everything from social aspects to physical aspects. Eat healthy, stay fit, build healthy relationships with people FOR THE SAKE OF ALLAH and you will be happy. That is all you need to know to be happy in this world, ISLAM. 

Friday, December 16, 2011

Think Well of Allah: A Lesson for the Believer

Do not desist from asking from Allah. Think well of your Lord, he the most merciful and has 
your best interests. Love him and he will love you. 

[2:259] "...And when it became clear to him, he said, "I know that Allah is able to do all things."

"Allah said, 'I am to my slave as he thinks of Me, (i.e. I am able to do for him what he thinks I can do for him). (Sahih Bukhari : 502)

I am content...

A real believer has tawakkul. It takes a lot for someone to be content and have full trust that Allah (subhana wa ta’ala) has their best interest. We should think well of Allah. When Allah promise,s he fulfills his promises. One of the names of Allah is Ar-Razzaq and I feel that sometimes we forget that he is. We think that our fruits are from our own doing but we are mistaken. Allah is the ultimate decision maker of whether we attain such blessings or not. If we are blessed that should also prompt us to question our position. Perhaps our blessings could be a punishment because they can stray us from Truth. When Allah wants well for one of his slaves he gives them trials in order to purify them in this world rather than in the next realm.

I just graduated from Univ, I am not married and the rest sort of goes down hill... I don’t have anyone to protect me, speak for me or even represent me. As a result, I feel many have tried advantage of my situation to belittle me or not give me my rights as their Muslim sister in Islam. I am content, nonetheless and I don’t ask for any other situation.  Allah knows what is best for me. I don’t bother to stress about something that perhaps is not meant for me. If it is meant for me then good; if not;  it is okay. Taking such a position as this, makes life so much more bearable. I don’t think I would be able to survive any other way.  Everything in Islam is such a blessing.  Even the mere fact that I can be grateful is a blessing as I can get rewarded for even being grateful.

I’m applying to so many jobs and grad school simultaneously. At the same time, I will be jobless in less than 15 days so I need a job ASAP. Alhamdulillah, I have a family yet I don’t include them into the equation unless its totally necessary. I am able body and Allah has bestowed me with intellect. I can get by. Yeah I am alone, yeah I am hijabi revert, this society is coocky and islamophobic but it is going to be alright Bithni'illah! It is hard, but Allah knows this as well and I was given this situation for a reason. It is my trial and I am content. 

Allah's Mercy

When I think of Allah’s mercy it really humbles me. I wish it had a more lasting effect on me. Allah is so merciful towards me that he does not immediately destroy me Subhana’Allah.  When make dua I really I don’t feel that I am in the position to have my dua accepted but regardless I try SOMETIMES in hopes that perhaps Allah would be merciful enough to accept my repentance and allow a dua to be accepted.

Last night I went to bed very late because I have been alone for the past week. I was so scared that I felt my heart thump on my chest and I thought that I could die in my sleep. I thought of how fragile our bodies are and how easily I could die. It made me more scared and I went to sleep doing istigfar and saying the Shahadah.
I sometimes don’t know where I get the strength to persevere in this life. When something goes wrong I just think that Allah is merciful and nothing worse can occur. In addition, if I ask Allah to purify me and I am enduring some difficult obstacles at the moment I should be grateful. Perhaps Allah is answering one of my duas of purification and purifying me through these trials.

I know I am a long ways from where I want to be. So its okay... all good things take time and as long as I get a good ending I can be content with it :) I just hope in Allah that he will not seal my heart and always guide me. 

Sunday, December 4, 2011

My brother in my dream

I don’t ever try to interpret my dreams. My dreams are somehow discernible. They largely are made up of my thoughts and issues that at the moment are of high importance. Therefore they are very predictable. If I went shopping with my mother I will dream about it. If I went running I will dream about it. If I had a thought about how I think my professor is a jerk I will dream about it. Regardless, its important to note that good dreams are from Allah so we should not think they are insignificant.

This past week, I dreamed that my brother was Muslim. I had planned to write about it sooner and now the memory of my dream is too vague. uggh :(  All I remember was that it beautiful and that my brother was really serious about his fajr prayers! MASHA'ALLAH In my dream, he had called his wife at home to check up if she had prayed fajr. Although I was dreaming, I was shocked at his conviction. More shocking was that his wife had followed him into Islam.

Realistically, they are the least people I would expect to embrace Islam ( I feel horrible I feel this way). Once at a family gathering a male cousin of mine inquired me about "my religion", islam. He wanted me to tell him a bit about it. He felt convinced that it is the religion that should be followed as that is what he conveyed to me. Not sure if he was joking. What was more unbelievable was that he asked me if I had told my brother about Islam. He surprised that more people did not know about this and commented that our parents are too old and ignorant to comprehend so he was sure that if my brother accepted Islam my family would follow after him as he perceived him to be a leader. I was very perplexed by my cousin’s response and up to date still am. I was in odds with my cousin as I did not agree that my brother was a leader and I even expressed to him that I don’t believe anyone in my family would ever embrace Islam.

I make lots of dua for my family to embrace Islam but apparently my dream and my actions reveal they are being done in vain. I don’t know if I am totally hopeless. All I know is that I can envision nothing in this regard any time soon. I really hope its not because I have not tawakkul(trust in Allah). I don’t know I guess I have to continue working on my heart.

Ahh… Im finally sleepy… yey