In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate

In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate
Al-Quran (30:30)

So direct your face toward the religion, inclining to truth. [Adhere to] the fitrah of Allah upon which He has created [all] people. No change should there be in the creation of Allah. That is the correct religion, but most of the people do not know.

فَأَقِمْ وَجْهَكَ لِلدِّينِ حَنِيفًا فِطْرَةَ اللَّهِ الَّتِي فَطَرَ النَّاسَ عَلَيْهَا لَا تَبْدِيلَ لِخَلْقِ اللَّهِ ذَلِكَ الدِّينُ الْقَيِّمُ وَلَكِنَّ أَكْثَرَ النَّاسِ لَا يَعْلَمُونَ
[Al-Imran 3:8] "[Who say], "Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower."

Sunday, January 22, 2012

The Shahadah

Yesterday after Jumuah, a sister did her shahadah. Naturally, I felt very happy and happy for her because it is always an indication of Allah's mercy and Islam’s greatness but for a slight moment I felt awkward.

Personally, I have always been annoyed by the question of how I came to Islam by total strangers. Somehow they expect me to expel such a personal journey in 30 seconds. Then when I do they don’t pay attention, interrupt me and then walk away after the delivery. Most of them never even introduce themselves or do I ever see them again. It is only recently I have begun to express this when inquired. So I will withhold telling them “where I am from,” which I also find so irritating. As if being encircled by a bunch of women whom you don’t know was not enough  and then having to do the whole hugging and kissing routine 3 times -_- (dont know where that came from definitely not from Islam) …. it can be very overwhelming.

I had the benefit of taking  my shahadah in a small gathering with 3 of my lady friends, the sheikh and my older sister. Alhamdulillah I was spared of this overwhelming and awkward situation. I think it needs to be addressed! I am sure there are etiquettes on how to congratulate new Muslims. I shall gather some information and post it when I do BITNI’ILLAH (with Allah’s permission).

I am sure she got bombarded with all sorts of questions. Once the crowd encircling her subsided, I went over to introduce myself and congratulate her. She was a “mature” woman and had a very "down to earth" demeanor. I was relieved to see her very calm. I hesitated on asking her any questions but I did anyhow. I inquired her about the length of her “quest” to which she replied, “a long long time that recently became more intense.”

Although, I have been in their situation (new revert) before, I don’t know how exactly to relate anymore. Sometimes I forget I am a revert myself and dont convey it. When I took my shahadah, I kept thinking how I did not feel any different and wondered why I did not. For some individuals they do begin to doubt and feel perhaps it is a mistake. Of course these are whispers of shaytan.

If I knew then what I know now (have more islamic knowledge), I would have been totally ecstatic crying out of joy but I was not. Witnessing a shahadah for me is quite profound now for many reason but mainly because I revisit my own.

I think humans inherently magnify things more than they ought to especially if these events are perceived to be pivotal in one’s life. For instance, when I first started college, all I could do was look forward to graduation. When I finally did graduate, I realized it was not a big deal or at least I did not feel as ecstatic as I HOPE I would. I was like “this is it? Is this what I was waiting for all along?” I felt disappointed and soon graduation was so overrated for me. I don’t even know why I bought so much stuff for that day.  

The same I guess can be applied to marriage. Apparently from what I have heard it is not all that great as we, singles make it out to be. I guess hurray for the single life right? Not!   ;-p

So because you don’t feel overjoyed as you think you should, it does not signify its NOT special. It’s necessary to note that these doubts have no real rationale behind them. Just random emotions and shaytan.

 In that moment you don’t know the magnitude of your decision and how it will be the best one you will have ever done in the entirety of your life. I only KNOW and FEEL this now... 

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

One who has Allah has everything!

Points to think about through out video

  • Even in Luxury and Blessing this is a test from Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala
  • Our trials is a calling from Allah for us to get closer to him.
  • In this world you will never be happy. Contentment is in Allah and we will only attain true happiness in Jannal (heaven-paradise)
  • Change your perspective, there is someone out there with a greater trial. 
  • Umar Al-Khattab (radi Allahu anhu) once stated, "When we were tested we were thankful for 3 things; 1.) that this trial was not in our deen 2.) That this trial was not as great as it could have been, Allah could have made this trial greater. 3.) That Allah allowed us to be patient in that trial."
  • Rasulullah (sallahu Allayhi wa salam) stated, "That an individual who is patient in times of calamities incurs the pleasure of Allah and he who is not incurs the wrath of Allah."
  • A man is tested in accordance to his level of faith/religion.
  • Do not allow trials forget all the blessing that Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala has bestowed you with before or throughout it. Do not be ungrateful. 
  • Be mindful that perhaps this trials can not be trials at all but a blessing and  means to bring something better into your life :)
  • So when calamity strikes BE THANKFUL :) AND PATIENT so if Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala desires he will change your condition.

Monday, January 16, 2012

What a beautiful thing is the case of the Believer! :)

"Suhaib reported that Allah's Messenger (may peace be upon him) said: Strange are the ways of a believerfor there is good in every affair of his and this is not the case with anyone else except in the case of abeliever for if he has an occasion to feel delight, he thanks Allah, thus there is a good for him in it, and if he gets into trouble and shows resignation (and endures it patiently), there is a good for him in it. " (Muslim)
What a beautiful thing!!! We all need to realize that no matter what, I MEAN NO MATTER we will never be truly happy in this world. Sometimes you think, "if only I had that job, that car or that house, or such a spouse" that you then will be happy but that will not be the case, EVER. That only exists in Jannah! So strive for it not for this world. This world is only a means. If one looks at all the people that have the things you desire, you will find that they are not happy or content with any of it. I once asked one of my non-muslim friends what would it take for her to be happy, what would be the minimum amount of money she feels she needs to be "content." She said 300K but perhaps 500K.

Contentment is with Allah and only in it can one find happiness. Now going back to my friend's reply, could that actually be possible? Could one feel content or happy with that amount of money? Well one thing is for sure, when one attains what they want they usually belittle it and want more!

I sometimes wonder why a billionaire would need all those billions of dollars sitting in their bank. Seriously how can one have that much money in their bank account while people are starving and suffering? Another prime example are celebrities. Some people are so obsessed with them and would wish so direly to have them or someone "like" them. You think they are so perfect but they have so many ex-partners for a reason; they are not perfect. Its always "greener" on the other side.

We also need to realize that we will be tried by either pleasure (fortunes, blessings) or pain (misfortunes, deaths..etc). Regardless we should be grateful and return to our Lord in all situations. Know that everything that befalls us is from him and he is the only one whom can help us. Distancing yourself from Allah will not help you. On the contrary it will only destroy and be a cause of more distress. Take everything day by day. Do not anticipate the future because you will start to fear it, you will fear poverty or misfortune. This is a trick from shaytan. He only wants you to loose hope in Allah as that can lead you astray. It should be your sign to look at the condition of your heart and start to repair it with the worship of Allah. Busy yourself in worship! It is our medicine for our souls. Talk with Allah at all times especially before you sleep. Its the most beautiful thing. Treat the Qur'an as your daily Newsfeed. Read up on its news directly from Allah!

JUST NEVER loose hope in Allah. Why place your hope in this world?! it will only perish! Place your hope in Allah, have tawwakkul (trust in Allah).

Personally, I have had been feeling a little distressed about how things in my life have sorted out. According to me, nothing has worked out as I had planned. Then I thought, "who the cheerio do I think I am to believe I own myself and knows whats better for myself than Allah. Astagfur'allah (may allah forgive me)."

Allah is the best of planners and I should rely in Allah. What is the worst that can happen to me? Nothing... As of right now I feel a little stressed about where I will live after my lease is over. I am not sure if I can afford to live in this college town especially because I can't seem to find another job. On top of that, I am applying to Grad school simultaneously which stressed me out because its expensive to. Then If i do get accepted I am not sure how I will finance it.  I find myself worrying too much and it is like a never ending cycle of worry. The more I think deeper into my future the more I stress. Sometimes I can't sleep and many times I have I broke down. I even stress about the fact that I fear my parents will die in disbelief. I dont know yet what will happen and I am already crying about it.

I really wish things were easier but you know... they are already. Alhamdulillah, All my family is alive and I adore my family and they adore me. I will not go hungry to bed and I have awesome legs that I can bike heck of fast. I have everything I need and I feel so blessed. I rather go through this trial than have a tougher trial.

I love the fact I have these trials because they are purifying  me and I know that Allah loves me and I want him to love me. I will be patient and do what is within my power to change my situation Bismillah! What a beautiful thing is the case of the Believer! Our happiness lies in Allah! Allahu Akbar!