In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate

In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate
Al-Quran (30:30)

So direct your face toward the religion, inclining to truth. [Adhere to] the fitrah of Allah upon which He has created [all] people. No change should there be in the creation of Allah. That is the correct religion, but most of the people do not know.

فَأَقِمْ وَجْهَكَ لِلدِّينِ حَنِيفًا فِطْرَةَ اللَّهِ الَّتِي فَطَرَ النَّاسَ عَلَيْهَا لَا تَبْدِيلَ لِخَلْقِ اللَّهِ ذَلِكَ الدِّينُ الْقَيِّمُ وَلَكِنَّ أَكْثَرَ النَّاسِ لَا يَعْلَمُونَ
[Al-Imran 3:8] "[Who say], "Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower."

Monday, October 29, 2012

Will the heavens and earth weep for you?

Ibn Jareer recorded that Sa`eed bin Jubayr said, "A man came to Ibn `Abbaas, may Allaah be pleased with him, and said to him: ‘O Abaa al-`Abbaas, Allaah says, "{And the heavens and the earth wept not for them, nor were they given respite.} [ad-Dukhaan 44:29]" ‘Do the heavens and the earth weep for anybody?’ 

He, may Allah be pleased with him, said, ‘Yes, there is no one who does not have a gate in the heavens through which his provision comes down and his good deeds ascend. When the believer dies, that gate is closed; it misses him and weeps for him, and the place of prayer on earth where he used to pray and remember Allaah also weeps for him. 

But the people of Fir`awn left no trace of righteousness on the earth and they had no good deeds that ascended to Allaah, so the heavens and the earth did not weep for them.’”Al-`Awfi reported something similar from Ibn `Abbaas, may Allah be pleased with him.Extracted from Tafseer Ibn Katheer

Saturday, October 27, 2012

The Effects of a Pleasant Smile

Regarding the hadeeth where the Prophet (sallAllahu ‘alayhi wa sallam) said: “Do not look down on any act of kindness, even if it is just meeting your brother with a pleasant smile on your face.” [Sahih Muslim]

Ibn ‘Uthaymeen said: “A pleasant smile causes people to become happy, wins over their love and affection, and leads to both parties having good thoughts of each other. Just try it and you will see.However, were you to frown upon the people, they would stay away from you and not feel comfortable sitting with you nor talking to you. 
You may even become afflicted with a dangerous condition: high blood pressure. Having a tranquil chest and a pleasant smile is the most wholesome remedy and the best preventative measure for this condition. For this reason, physicians advice people who have this condition to stay away from what disturbs and angers them, since those things only agitate this condition.
A pleasant smile actually has a remedial effect on this condition, since it leads to a tranquil chest, and it causes others to love you.”

[Taken from: “Upright Moral Character”, by Ibn ‘Uthaymeen, p. 49]

Monday, October 22, 2012

Two Blessings...

Ibn Abbas narrated that Prophet Mohammad (Sallalaahu Alaihi wa Sallam) said:“There are two blessings which many people lose: (They are) health and free time for doing good.”(Bukhari 8/421)

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Ibn al Qayyim: The Two Greatest Things We Waste

Last night as I climbed into bed I felt the weight of remorse on my heart on how I expended my day. Whatever takes us away from the remembrance of Allah (subhanahu wa ta ala) is harmful to our hearts, soul and time.  I came across this profound quote from Ibn Al-Qayyim (as expected).

I believe the reason I waste so much time and my blessing towards what will not benefit me is due to having too much hope. I suppose that I believe I have my day guaranteed tomorrow and the mercy of Allah on the day of Judgment. The way I use my time also illustrates how I prefer this world more than the hereafter. Its such illogical way of thinking. I don’t want to think that way and I don’t consider myself to be such an individual but apparently I am. May Allah guide me and give me the fortitude to do the deeds that will earn me his pleasure.

Ibn Al-Qayyim said, “The greatest of these things we waste are two, upon which are founded all other wasted things: the waste of the heart, and the waste of time. Wasting of the heart is to prefer the world over the Hereafter; and wasting of time is to have too much hope. Every corruption is found in the following of desires and having too much hope; and every benefit is found in the following of the guidance and preparing for the meeting with Allah; and Allah’s help is sought.”
[Al-Fawaa’id, ashrah la yantaf’i biha]

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Pondering about our purpose of life

It’s depressing that a large portion of my day is spent on working. It is such a waste of life especially if it takes me away from the things that I love like going to visit family, gaining knowledge, reading, devoting more time for worship and things Islamic. It is difficult  to be passionate about anything else and since at the moment I am applying to graduate school I don’t know even know how to decorate my application with a “flowery” testimony of my passion for whatever I want to study. I feel like an empty shell. Don’t know how to describe the feeling. The reason being, ultimately my purpose in life is not to attain a certain career position. All of this stuff is only a means. My real purpose is to worship Allah. Yes, it’s that simple. Many “Muslims” don’t like to realize that and even if some do testify to this, deep inside they feel otherwise. The reason being again is because they have been influenced by a narcissistic world. That to acknowledge that we are at the disposal of our Creator and something simple as doing sujud (prayer-prostration) can be humiliating.

Yes, our purpose in life is to worship Allah! And for me this makes life so much easier. I must remind myself constantly because this life easily consumes me.  Wish everyone knew this and would stop putting a facade that all this junk is so important. I attended a seminar today. Subhana’Allah some people get so hard core into these things that it comes as a shock to me everyday. Masha’Allah they have much knowledge but not sure how much it will benefit them when it WILL really matter, the Day of Judgment. Does no one care about their souls?

Anyways, so today I hung out with my cousin and I don’t remember what I said that she responded that life is great and all worth it. My mother says something similar to that too, “la vida es tan rica (this life is so great).” To which I find it odd to have such feelings towards it. When we tell others how we aught to be grateful to Allah for our lives, the same people feel that there is nothing to be grateful about in their lives yet those people would do anything to stay alive. This life can only be great when we switch our perspective that this life is our currency for the hereafter. Even if one thought this life is about enjoying one self and seeking pleasure I don’t see how it’s enough to overlook the reality of life and its trials. In addition this life is cheap compared to what our Creator has in store for his righteous believers.

While looking at my agenda today I also realized how there seems to be no barakah in my time. Don’t know how to feel about that. I become depressed at the thought that perhaps because I am not beloved to Allah or due to the condition of my heart or my sins I have no barakah, I lose hope. I don’t like to dwell on such feelings as it makes me less spiritually productive due to feeling hopeless in attaining Allah’s pleasure.

I'm tired, going to bed now, got to wake up early for work and then come back home to sleep early to wake up early to work the next day. What a life Subhana’Allah!

Thursday, October 4, 2012

My Little Sick Heart

I feel as if my iman is always low subhana'Allah. The worst trial is a trial in one's faith. Most of the time I can feel when my heart is going to be ill. Like a physical illness I also get symptoms. Think of it like a cold, you can sense cold with the onset of a scratchy throat and achy body. The same applies to how I feel when my heart is going to be sick.  I am more distracted in my salah, I socialize more and do not preoccupy myself with gaining knowledge. I realized again and I MUST remind myself constantly that in order to maintain my iman I must be DILIGENT and PLAN! That was why Ramadans are so spiritually productive for many Muslims.

Currently trying to finish reading the seerah of the prophet (sallahu allayhi wa salam), The Sealed Nectar (Ar-Raheequl-Makhtum) before I move onto something else. I want to delve as deep as I can and reflect on the lessons that can be derived from his seerah. Being that I am heart sick from superficial things about life at the moment, the seerah of rasulullah (sallahu allayhi wa salam) has subjected me to scrutinize my perspective on my trials as minute as a warm breeze on a summer day. They are not terrible and neither do they harm me. A warm breeze can be delightful yet does not change the condition. So I should in no way feel "bitter" or go on a "life is hard because I am convert" rant. I feel immensely stupid. I should humble myself and just do what I can with my life and just wait for the bounty of my Lord. My trials are nothing like that of the early converts to Islam.

In testament of that, today was an awkward day at work. One of my coworkers "randomly" starts to comment how religion is the fountain of vice and wars and such. Then he says how God is everything good that is what God is and not how religion defines it. I laughed to myself and finished his quote with "said fulan (his name)." I am so tired of this... I dont even know why they feel they have a right to annoy me. I've thought of complaining but why would another kafir care anyways. Again I reflected on the seerah and how the mushrik went to great lengths just to annoy the believers and mock them. I mean subhana'Allah these kafirs go through so much efforts to annoy me sometimes its entertaining. These moments reaffirm to me that despite having an ill heart, it is not yet sealed. I feel the iman in my heart and dont desire to compromise my beliefs to appease to them like they do in order to disguise their wavering faith and lack of truth.

The sweetness of faith makes this life bearable. Its like a cool breeze on a hot summer day. Delightful and gives relief. I love Allah (azza wa jal) and  I love Rasulullah (sallahu allayhi wa salam) and I love my religion of Islam! I feel so happy right now! May Allah guide me and forgive me.

Astaghfirullaha wa atoobu ilayhi (I seek the forgiveness of Allah and repent to him)