In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate

In the name of God, most Gracious, most Compassionate
Al-Quran (30:30)

So direct your face toward the religion, inclining to truth. [Adhere to] the fitrah of Allah upon which He has created [all] people. No change should there be in the creation of Allah. That is the correct religion, but most of the people do not know.

فَأَقِمْ وَجْهَكَ لِلدِّينِ حَنِيفًا فِطْرَةَ اللَّهِ الَّتِي فَطَرَ النَّاسَ عَلَيْهَا لَا تَبْدِيلَ لِخَلْقِ اللَّهِ ذَلِكَ الدِّينُ الْقَيِّمُ وَلَكِنَّ أَكْثَرَ النَّاسِ لَا يَعْلَمُونَ
[Al-Imran 3:8] "[Who say], "Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. Indeed, You are the Bestower."

Sunday, November 25, 2012

The Silliest People, the fools

Fudayl ibn `Iyyaad (rahimahullaah) said:
“Any evil doer can think he is a good person, the ignorant can think of himself as a scholar, the greedy thinks of himself generous, the stupid thinks of himself as intelligent. Life is short and hopes are unlimited, yet many are too dazzled with themselves to see a clear picture for advancement.” 
Adh-Dhahabee (rahimahullaah) commented: “I swear by Allah that Fudayl is right. One is also unjust, yet believes he is the oppressed, eats unlawfully and thinks himself pious, a sinner and thinks himself honest, and seeks knowledge but hasn’t even learned to implement it to his family.” Sifaatus-Sawfah 8/440.
May Allah protect us from being such and we seek refuge in Allah from such people. Ameen. I love these two quotes as they both work as an iman "litmus paper." I usually find that those who ask why trials afflict them are those that believe they are good and do not deserve them. Its only those who believe they are good that are bad. Subhana'Allah, I have to remind myself not to be as such. Allah is so merciful that he really does not give us what we REALLY deserve. If that was so we would all be destroyed. We should ask Allah the most merciful, for his mercy and for his blessings as we are not deserving of such. We can not even thank Allah enough and we can not until we REALIZE that we can not thank Allah enough. ONLY then will we be truly thankful. Anyhow that is all I wanted to share. May we reflect and benefit.

An Awkward Smile

We MUST remind and remember that our purpose in this life is not to please or fulfill our dreams. It is to worship Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala. Patience is so difficult but when we remember the real treasure of this life is the happiness that is achieved by being an obedient slave to Allah, it makes patience seem obvious. I rarely talk about my life and the difficulties that I deal with being a revert because in truth it has nothing to do with me being a revert but being human and a believer. I have the same trials a non revert would have.  Right now I am very hurt and my eyes have been moist since. I feel so sad that I don't even know how it will go away. Maybe time will distract me and when something better comes along. All I can do is fear Allah and persist in living and increasing my good deeds. Afterall, jannah is more everlasting than this world. I so want to feel bitter and if I were to ever speak of what I feel bitter from I would be the worst of human beings.

A lot of my trials have come from me trying to protect my Deen which is my heart. I am in the place I am in because I want to practice my deen and it subhana'Allah is the most lonelinest place on earth it seems. I am devalued because of it. I have been humiliated a lot and it hurts so bad. The worst aspect of this all is that sometimes I think my trials are due to my sins making me feel worse about my situation. Regardless of all this sadness, I have Allah, I am a muslim and I am still alive to continue to increase in good so that when I meet Allah I meet him with the best. I can't imagine undergoing all these trials without Islam. Being muslim makes me happy even if it can only spark an awkward smile. May Allah give me the fortitude to be patient and motivation to strive to get closer to him ameen.

I came across this beautiful quote and I hope to share it so that we find in it ourselves.

Imaam Abu’l-Faraj ‘AbdurRahmaan Ibn Al-Jawzee:
"How excellent are the people who have abandoned sweet dreams, with drawing from that for which they erected their feet for. Standing up to fatigue themselves in the dark, seeking a portion of the blessing. When the night comes they stay up, and when the day arrives they derive lessons from it. When they look at their faults they seek forgiveness, and when they think about their sins they cry and feel dejected. O dwellings of the beloved, where are your inhabitants? O places of sincerity, where are your residents? O spots of the pious, where are your people? O places of nightly prayer, where are your visitors? I have, by Allah, traveled around and found these people extinct. Those who used to stay awake at night have gone away and the lovers of sleep are left. These times have sought eating of lusts to replace fasting.”[al-Yawaqit al-Jawzeeyya, p.28-29]

Thursday, November 15, 2012

A Happy Person Fears Allah

What a beautiful quote below.

Imam Ibnul Qayyim (may Allah have mercy upon him) stated: There is nothing more beneficial for the Muslim than abiding by the orders (of Allah), even if this initially brings about some difficulty. This is because its (obedience to Allah's orders) outcomes are all good, happiness, delight and joy, even if the person's desires (originally) disliked adherence. (Al-Fawaa`id)

When we have good intentions and solely try to find good because we know only good comes from it, this will only reap good. During the whole ordeal, to reach such a state is difficult but Allah subhanahu wa ta ala is so merciful that he guides our hearts towards tranquility. This life is so transient and I forget this FACT  often and as a result the monotonousness of this life takes a toll in my heart. It's sourness and weight makes me feel as if I am sinking into a suffocating darkness. The worst aspect of this all is that All praise is due to Allah, I have the LUXURY to even complain of such an easy life.

I sleep soundly every night not having to worry about any harm that may afflict me other than that of my own sins and trials of the heart. So easy subhana'Allah while people are being tested with more harsh trials all around the world. Regardless of this reality, I still find myself struggling to do much good, to BE better. Seems so much easier to give into our desires, neglect our iman and block our consciousness that Allah is all watching and all knowing. The most beautiful days I have are the days in which I am most spiritually productive. When the only melody that played in my heart was Qur'an and was strengthened with many prostrations. So beautiful. These are the days I am most happy and my happiness almost feels tactile. Why don't I do it more often? I don't know.

When I submit to Allah, nothing else matters and I feel happy! I feel so happy that I begin to feel sad because it reminds me of so many that dont know this happiness that comes with Islam.

This happiness is the end result of submitting to Allah. It our purpose in life so it is only makes sense for us to feel tranquility when we do. Ironically, we neglect it and it is the most difficult trial to do in this life, to submit. Currently I find it very difficult for myself to submit to the will of Allah and trust that Allah knows best. BUT when we do it is liberating and we feel joy. To me this is true happiness. A happy person can only be a person that fears and loves Allah therefore we should seek the guidance of Allah to lead us to be such individuals. May Allah make it easy for all of us Ameen.

Yesterday while contemplating some things in my life I realized many things. I want good and if I want it, I must seek it while doing good. We can not expect Allah to bless us with good if while doing so we do not do good. While at the same time we have to be patient and trust that Allah knows what is best. In islam, the end does not justify the means. The means (that asbab) must be good too. I leave this post now with this beautiful ayah so there is NEVER a reason to despair.

[3:9] "Indeed, Allah does not fail in his promise."

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Who is the believer among you?

I find myself quite often contemplating about my iman. I dont know when my iman is high but I DO know when my iman is low. However it is the in the times in which my iman is low that I find motivation to overcome it. I hate these phases but after each of these low iman episodes I come out with a stronger iman. Let me illustrate; having to constantly battle the whispers of shaytan sort of builds your "iman portfolio." The next time around you are more prepared and know from where he will try to attack. You have to prepare yourself for these battles. I know it sounds schizophrenic and weird but be advised. If one does not have the proper foundation (aqeedah) then know you will lose. Having low iman does not mean that you don't have belief, all it means is that ONE needs motivation, we are human. These whispers sometimes come disguised as your thoughts and it can make one question whether they are believers or munafiqs which is where I find myself quite often.  We just have to keep seeking knowledge, LEARN LEARN LEARN and busy ourselves with seeking it.
Its important to give ourselves relief by learning of what a believer is. I know for me that this hadith made me extremely happy. Hope this is a relief for you all. 

The Prophet sallahu allayhi wa salam said, “Whoever rejoices with his good deeds and grieves over his evil deeds, then that is the believer among you.” - [Sunan Tirmidhee (2165) and graded as “Saheeh” by Shaikh al-Albaanee] 
"So if you see within yourself that your chest expands with obedience and constricts with sins, then this is a glad tiding for you, that you are from the believing slaves of Allaah and from His pious Auliyaa’. That is why the Prophet sallahu allayhi wa salam said, “and coolness (comfort) of my eyes has been provided in prayer” [Sunan al-Nasaa’ee (3939, 3940) and graded as “Saheeh” by Shaikh al-Albaanee]  
-The Auliya of Allah-from Riyaadh Al Saliheen
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STILL... DON'T think much of yourself or think you are "safe." The way of the salaf was that they were in constant fear of being hypocrites and not doing enough. Always rushing towards doing good deeds, competing with one another in good. Umar Al-Khattab (radi Allahu anhu) was one to be recognized of being as such.  Its a good thing to contemplate about our iman and seek to improve it always. I hope that this will be a reminder to give some relief to those who feel wounded by these schizo-shaytan battles... May Allah make it easy on all of you who seek nearness to him. Allahumma ameen.

It is reported that Al-Hasan Al-Basrî – Allâh have mercy on him – said:The believer does the best deeds yet is most fearful [that his deeds will not be accepted]. If he were to spend a mountain of wealth [in charity], he would not feel sure [of the reward] until he sees it. The more righteous and pious he becomes, the more he fears. But the hypocrite (munâfiq) says, ‘There are so many people, I will be forgiven, no problem.’ So he does wrong and evil deeds, yet holds foolish wishes about Allâh. 
Al-Dhahabî,Siyar A’lâm Al-Nubalâ` 4:586.